2017-05-14

justleftoftwisted: (xray)
2017-05-14 05:09 pm

Mother's day

A day wherein Mother's are thanked for their service to life. And I'm grateful for it. Co-worker got me a candle, roommate got me a record....

Husband got me doughnuts for breakfast, easily forgetting that I don't really like them anymore. Lunch is ramen, because we don't have other food that isn't stricken towards a future supper and even if it wasn't, it's cabinet scraps.

"But Arma," you might say, confused as to why this is a big enough problem for me to complain about. "Why don't you just make a menu and buy groceries? Use that proactive laziness you promote so much."

Good point, except I don't have that option. I don't do the shopping, I don't pay for the food, I don't get choices in what we're having except 'Do you want A or B' and I appreciate the efforts of those that do hold such mundane power, but I'm not a teenager or a third shift working mom anymore. I'd like some control about what goes into my face hole.

This waistline doesn't maintain itself you know, and my appetite is a bitch.

I've been living like this for about 3 1/2 out of the 10 or 11 years I've been in this damned state. The south is great, don't get me wrong; they're all very friendly and hospitable, if you go to the right places and ignore the crazies that I know are in every city, but it's smothering me. I don't belong down here.

That's not the point.

The point is that I've got less control over my life then I need. Need, that's right, like water, or air or time to myself.

But the short time that I've gotten has passed. Maybe I'll pour out more later.